I was privileged years ago to serve as the state prayer secretary of Nigerian Christian Corpers Fellowship, Benue, Nigeria and some of the experiences I had in the office has thought me lessons I will never forget in my life. One of the experience would be the anchor for the caption we are about to learn at the moment.
I discovered during the tenure at a season that the demands and the fellowship activities was robbing me of my quiet time. I was close to getting engaged to the activities but far from my secret place. I was at the disposal of attending to the challenges of the people while I was becoming a dissapointment to the Holy spirit.
After some days I became conscious of the fact that I haven’t been spiritually up and doing. To my amazement, I could still reproduce some results which had blinded me for that long.
I was leading prayers in prayer meetings while I was not praying and the people under such ministrations could ascend in his presence while I could not find where I was yet I was the one holding the microphone.
I joined faith with people to pray for intervention over their challenges and God took the glory while I couldn’t join myself to the move of heaven for that time .
I laid hands on people and I saw different manifestations while the Holy spirit could not lay hold of me anymore.
You know what, many brethren told me that they desire God’s grace at work in me at that time, little did they know I was weary and losing the essence of my spirituality.
I was often found on the pulpit while I was lost in His presence, I was seen on the pulpit while I couldn’t find myself in the secret place
I cried “alas!”, these results would not decloud me of my commitment and consisitency. I spoke with colleagues of like passion, they encouraged me to get back to His presence, repent of spiritual irresponsibility and stop drawing from ‘reserved’.
When we get results and attainments beyond our preparations in the secret place, sometimes it is a call for celebration but a call to caution, so we won’t be an accident about to happen. We can’t last neither can we go far if we think we can always get results beyond the level of our intimacy with the Holy spirit.
Often times, the anointing and dimensions we experience when we are not in alignment with His will or have not been consistent in drawing virtues in His presence, may be a flow of the reserved we have accumulated over time which is bound to be expended soon.
In moments like this, dont think it to be grace beyond your commitment. Remember the spirit realm does not give room to loan or overdraft, spiritual withdrawal most times is equivalent to spiritual deposit available within us.
The measure of our desperacy will determine the level of our intimacy with Him, the level of our consistency in His presence would determine the measure of our spiritual potency.
You can overcome and avoid such experience like me. I’m concern about your spiritual growth and attainment this year like never before.